I seemed to have it all. I had a fabulous job in the Manhattan art scene. I had relationships that, on the surface, looked great. I was surrounded by tons of people and had action-packed weekends. My days were filled with exactly what I’d asked for: status, responsibilities, glamour, connections, big city culture and non-stop activity.

I was barely 22 years old and already depleted physically, spiritually and mentally. The daily effort to be perfect, achieve recognition, be loved, and cover up my seemingly endless inner demons, insecurity and self-doubt got the best of me. I was in pain, and now not just emotionally. I needed help and fast.

At first, I reached out to medical doctors who speculated about the cause of my debilitating symptoms: fatigue, weight gain, depression, eczema, joint pain, digestive issues, insomnia and crippling muscle aches. Within minutes they were withdrawing blood and throwing about possibly diagnoses.

In that moment, no matter what they said, I came to realize deep down, what was wrong. And I knew the answer would not come from blood tests.

I was over-worked, under-recognized and chasing all the wrong things. I wasn’t trusting my own inner power. I was constantly second guessing myself, pleasing others and feeling not enough. And I certainly wasn’t making the impact I felt I was here to make.

My soul was not being fed.

I left my depleting, over-masculine job. I ended relationships that had been built on the old fears and insecurities. I stopped abusing my body with excess food, alcohol and partying. I even relocated across the country, returning to my roots.

I started on a journey of deep self-discovery and education.
For me, that meant awakening my love of healing, nurturing and teaching. It meant getting a Masters in Spiritual Psychology and advanced trainings in Psychosynthesis and developmental psychology. It meant rediscovering my love of healthy, natural food, studying at the Institute for Integrative Nutrition and becoming an expert in raw cuisine and tonic herbs.

I studied energy medicine, Nutripuncture, nature connection, conscious language, sound healing, sacred body language translations, family dynamics, sacred femininity and gender expression.

I practiced yoga with discipline, ecstatic dance with sheer abandon and as I began to follow my passions, discovered that real joy was not the result of alcohol or drugs. I dove deeply into exploring the sensuality of my body, what it meant to be a woman and experienced the power of letting my femininity rule. I also made peace with religion and developed an unshakeable, embodied spiritual connection that would prove to be my greatest north star of all.

I was a sponge; finally allowing myself everything my soul had been longing for.

I finally experienced what it felt to be fully present, embodied and alive... feeling my world deeply, following my bliss and curiosities and letting my joy and love wildly radiate out.

.... My insomnia and eczema disappeared.
... I dropped 25 pounds effortlessly.
... I found an energy and vitality that I didn’t know were possible.
... I was no longer depressed, anxious or in pain.
... I was in love!

I felt completely revived, connected to myself, to my purpose, and to the world I was consciously creating and impacting. By the time I was 24 years old, I had already started a holistic health practice. I was traveling the world, working with incredible clients, meeting amazing people and feeling part of deep, heart-centered community.

Now this new new-found joy wasn't just from living my purpose, it was also the result of having discovered the hidden patterns that kept me feeling powerless and small and the result of being led, as if by perfect divine design, to discovering unique ways to transform those patterns powerfully as no one had been able to help me before.

You see, this is what happens when you are following your heart's desires and living your purpose, MAGIC. Magic unfolds and you are led to the perfect experiences and tailor-made support structures for your unique path and purpose to unfold.

And through this journey is how I came to my greatest discovery of all - the discovery of my unshakeable core, my loyal inner voice, and my amazing power to manifest as a soul and through my feminine essence. And I realized how to create a life of love, meaning, joy and service not through the old effort, fighting and striving but through ease, authenticity and lots of play. I was finally back in my body, relishing in my beauty and feminine power, and back in my truth, letting my joy - not my head - lead the way.

Once I found my purpose, accessed my inner power, and tapped into my unique gifts, my world began to change in ways I never imagined.  I felt empowered, fulfilled, on purpose and in love!

And the same can happen for you.
You see, once you identify your true purpose in life, your destined path, everything becomes available to you.

> Once you gain mastery over the patterns and competing intentions driving your actions…
> Once you learn how to master your feminine energy...
> Once you learn to listen to the power of your own inner wisdom...
> Once you start harnessing your power to create your destiny...

Your true life begins to unfold in front of you.

A life where...
... You wake up excited about each day and what you’ll accomplish.
... You’re surrounded with people who support and nurture you, and you them.
... You have a career that energizes and inspires you and utilizes the unique gifts that only you possess.
... You radiate happiness that only comes from a confident sense of self and security.
... You are in love; with yourself, with others, with life.

And mostly, you feel empowered, knowing you have the power within you to brave any storm and to create joy, love and good all around you, the ultimate purpose we're all here to take on.